I hate how tied I am to my meds. I had a whole panic-attack-tirade of a blog post that my phone accidentally deleted, as my mood spiralled out of control. And then suddenly I remembered I hadn't taken a full dose of one of my meds that I needed a refill on, and just like that I snapped out of it. I got off the couch (I couldn't muster the energy to get off the couch for the most of the day), knowing there was a way out of this terrible mood. Call it a placebo effect or whatever since I hadn't even taken the pills yet, let alone have enough time pass for the pills to absorb, but it worked. It was probably simply the knowledge of there was a way out. Sigh.